Acting: for a new millennium!

gratitude list

‘93 civic that gets 37 mpg

awesome friends like alex and ben

women

technology

new job… and potentially one more ;)

people who let me stay with them when I have no where else to go.  you know who you are

flowers, trees, nature

Strange Wizarder, all dressed in black

*sigh of relief*

I have nearly finished my degree from UC Berkeley.  I’m ready to go on and make something of myself!

But the funny thing is that of course, like most people out there, I would like a job now.  When I think about what type of job to choose, I think about these things.  Sales with acting/djing on the side, go back and get an MBA or engineering degree and work for a company that could revolutionize our lifestyles, or pursue something in the graphic arts.  Then of course I have the humble dream deep inside, burning to build an online business and travel.

The funny thing is, I don’t feel that my Art Practice degree has prepared me for a career.  It seems that I will have to push hard and learn on the job if I want to get involved in something like sales/fundraising, or any other career.  I’m gonna have to start low and work my way up!

If I go the acting route, I will probably do fine.  I have a great acting ability.  I’m excellent.  Exceptional.  Egomaniac….  But nonetheless, I KNOW I could do it.  It’s just that I second guess, hoping that maybe my intellect will prove more favorable in the longterm.

If I went back to school, did this whole thing over again, and received an MBA or Engineering degree, it would probably be one of the silliest things in history.  Or not.  I may end up working for a really cool company that decodes human DNA.

Something must have happened and must have spent too many nights on the rooftop of Casa Zimbabwe, staring at the stars and feeling extremely curious to learn the truth.  The pure pursuit of science feels sometimes more poetic and artistic than poetry.  How does the world work?

But enough of that….  Getting another degree would qualify me for engineering jobs and marketplace jobs.  I would work hard, make money, and have a steady career.

If I chose acting, it would be an adventure.  I would meet so many people, have opportunity to live a dream, and inspire the world around me.  Not a shabby gift.

So what is more selfish?  Acting, which seems like all fun and hype and inspiration.  Or biz/eng?  Which seems so promising and lucrative.

I have no clue.

But personally, I think I’m more destined for the Acting route.  I didn’t really find it, it found me.  I acted for myself.  Then I acted for Erika.  Than I acted with Erika.  Then I soared above Cal with one of the best performances some of those teachers and students had seen.  I nailed it.  I did it.  I was very happy and proud of what wonderful work I had produced.

So, I feel that staying in Lompoc has only made my judgement cloudy.  I want to find a way to get to LA or NYC and make acting happen!